Can you make me thin AND happy, Paul McKenna?

I've suffered recently with some depression, and I think as a result of this I've put a lot of weight onto what was already a slightly overweight body.
Mathematically speaking
Depression + Slightly Overweight = Weight + More Weight = Too Much Weight.

I'd gotten myself out of depression, but still didn't quite feel ok, on a scale of 1/10 about 4.

SO, I decided that seen as though I couldn't motivate myself to get happy and lose weight, and neither could those around me, I'd hire the help of a professional. Here comes in Mr. Paul McKenna.

For those who don't know, Paul McKenna has written many books on how he can help us become better in all aspects, for example he has a book on quitting smoking and becoming rich, and they all use powerful psychological techniques, for example hypnosis, and simple exercises for somebody to use to 'program' their brain into the right way of thinking. 2 of these books are 'I can make you thin' and 'I can make you happy'.

I bought the 2 off amazon for the cumulative price of around £8, thinking it was worth a try at that money.

I'm writing a journal for 90 days, assessing both my mood and eating behaviours/weight, in the hope that via this I can gain some clarity as to whether this is working/going to work or not.

I'll be putting the journals up on this blog, unless they turn ridiculously personal which I can't see happening. If you want to see the journals I've uploaded, just search for the tags 'thin' and/or 'happy'
BAI x

It's New Years Eve!

For me anyway.

I've spent the last 2 days doing a fat lot of nothing, so I'm saying tomorrow is the start of my new year. I'm getting up early in the morning and starting a program I've found on the internet, which aims to get someone who barely does any exercise (me) to running 5 km in 9 weeks. I'll put a link here (click on this part i mean :P), so you can check it out like :)

I hope that with that, healthier eating, working harder at school and revision that I'll feel a lot better than I have in recent weeks, knowing that I'm working towards a healthier and more fulfilling life. I give this new surge of energy 2 weeks, tops. ;D

So, with my Psychology exam being about 2 weeks away, and with me, not going to lie, not having done much revision for it, you'll hopefully find that I don't post as much as I have been doing over this holiday.

Happy new year everybody :) x

Top 50 songs of 2010

Well, near enough 2010. I started this iTunes library using my old one combined with a friends in late November 2009, trimmed away songs I didn't like from my friends, and I've added a shizzload since. This initial library was 300 songs, not much really, but since then it's grown to 750 ^_^

I worked out my top 50 using 'play count x length of song = total listening time of the song'

1. Running up that hill - Placebo
2. The sadness will never end - Bring me the Horizon
3. Chelsea smile - Bring me the Horizon
4. Suicide season - Bring me the Horizon
5. It never ends - Bring me the Horizon
6. Tonight, tonight - The Smashing Pumpkins
7. Misguided ghosts - Paramore
8. Me with no you - Bowling for Soup
9. The best of times - Sage Francis
10. Last train home - Lostprophets
11. Everlong - Foo Fighters
12. Nothing good has happened yet - We are the Ocean
13. You had me at hello - A Day to Remember
14. The downfall of us all - A Day to Remember
15. You be the anchor that keeps my feet on the ground, I'll be the wings that keep your heart in the clouds - Mayday Parade
16. Sympathy for the devil - The Rolling Stones
17. Epic - Faith No More
18. Crucify me - Bring me the Horizon
19. The day that never comes - Metallica
20. Knife called lust - Hollywood Undead
21. The bird and the worm - The Used
22. Pray for plagues - Bring me the Horizon
23. Paradise lost - Hollywood Undead
24. Empty with you - The Used
25. Three cheers for five years - Mayday Parade
26. Smells like teen spirit - Nirvana
27. Sleep with one eye open - Bring me the Horizon
28. Save ourselves - The Blackout
29. Disarm - The Smashing Pumpkins
30. Best of you - Foo Fighters
31. This love, this hate - Hollywood Undead
32. Afterlife - Avenged Sevenfold
33. Bullet with butterfly wings - The Smashing Pumpkins
34. Download this song - MC Lars
35. Let's make out - Does it offend you, yeah?
36. Kiss me deadly - Reel Big Fish
37. Waking the demon - Bullet for my Valentine
38. Scream aim fire - Bullet for my Valentine
39. Ignorance - Paramore
40. A really cool dance song - Bowling for Soup
41. Brick by boring brick - Paramore
42. Everywhere I go - Hollywood Undead
43. Weightless - All time low
44. Give me what I want - Kids in Glass Houses
45. BFFF - Bowling for Soup
46. Silent (when we speak) - The Blackout
47. This is why we can't have nice things - The Blackout
48. Pretty handsome awkward - The Used
49. Over my head (cable car) - A Day to Remember
50. Anthem - Bring me the Horizon

Seen as though they make 8 appearances, I think it's safe to say that Bring me the Horizon are my favourite band. :-)

I can't think of a title, so this'll do.

There's a timeline to this, so i'll put it into 2 categories.

1 - Dean's 18th. (29th December)

2 - Shaun's new years party. (30th December (shit sherlock))

(For the record, I know these are the wrong dates. I realised after dean told me that there's a 31st of december. I think that it's hilarious to leave them there though)


I went to 1, and drank a lot. One of those big bottles of WKD, I think about 29384 shots of sours and a couple of shots of vodka, along with some vodka kick drinkypoos. I went to sleep at about 4:30 am, fully expecting to wake up with a terrible hangover. I woke up at 8:30 am, and felt a bit tired but apart from that absolutely fine. Didn't sleep at all during the day, which was a bit stupid on reflection.

I went to 2 and didn't have that much to drink, I think about 4 WKD's. I went to sleep at about 1:45 am, then got up at 2:45 am feeling a lot like death warmed up. I felt very VERY sick (but it was the sort of sick where you aren't sick), and was just over the top hot. After the hotness went, I just felt horrible. My mom came and picked me up (tragic), and I got to sleep when I got home at 3:30 am, and slept until 12 pm.



What I've learned from this experience is that, even if I only have a couple more another night, my body isn't invincible and immune from a hangover, however strong it might actually be to resisting alcohol. Also, if i'm due a hangover, sleep as much as possible, as i felt brilliant after waking up at 12. My hangovers apparantely happen when I'm asleep, which i'd much prefer to awake. FUN TIMES.


What can you take from this post? That I broke the law twice in two days. Naughty. And that I shan't be drinking two nights on the trot until March, which when you think about it, isn't too far away. ^_^

I PROMISE AS SOON AS MY NEW CAMERA ARRIVES I'LL BE UPLOADING A NEW VIDEO :D x